I failed the entire semester at uni so I decided to type myself a fake academic statement and send it home. My mother was so proud of me and she increased my allowance. I moved here to study but I lost focus along the way and at home we are so poor so I don’t want to go back and crush their dreams and also give my enemies the satisfaction of seeing me sit in the sun and bake the whole day like them. I feel very guilty and I want to continue this semester and make the changes I needed to make for me to reach success. They blocked me at uni and soon I am scared they will start sending letters home and I must explain myself. I am so scared if my mother finds out it will kill her. They send all the grant money for me to eat here at school and I disappointed them. How can I be so stupid even all the friends I had and my good for nothing fling turned their backs against me. I am so alone and I just want to sleep and never wake up again. I am so embarrassed and feel sad for lying to my mother who gives me her last money. I feel guilty and I don’t know where to start with all of this. I want to start over with my life.
You need to visit your faculty office and find out if you can continue with the second semester modules, provided that the first semester modules aren’t prerequisites for the second ones. This is definitely far from the end of the world. You will continue with these modules and do the others again next year but, you need permission from the faculty to do so. Also try to get yourself focussed on your academics and work hard to get yourself back on track. You made a mistake and it is okay to feel guilty about not being entirely honest with your mom. What is important is that you’re not using her money on alcohol and other distractions. Go to school, fix it and don’t stress your mother with the possibility of dropping out, just continue working hard and don’t give up on school yet, it’s way too soon. You’re going to make it. That’s what you came for and that’s what you’ll leave with. Degree/Diploma is your destination, these rocks along the path will not puncture your tyres. Continue pushing girl. Also please don’t lie to your mom
Stay Real ♥